I always feel like a freak because I'm never able to move on like this.

People just have an affair or even entire relationships; they break up and they forget. They move on like they would have changed brands of cereals.

I feel I was never able to forget anyone that I've been with because each person had their own specific qualities. You can never replace anyone; what is lost is lost.

Each relationship when it ends really damages me, I never fully recover. That's why I'm very careful with getting involved because it hurts too much...I will miss of the person the most mundane things. Like, I'm obssessed with little things...Maybe I'm crazy...I think...with people I see in them little details that are so specific to each of them that move me and that I miss and will always miss.

You can never replace anyone because everyone is made up of such beautiful, specific details.

Heyy folks. That's my sister, Ana. She came back from Perth about a week back. The sunglasses are hers, the cap's mine. When I feel especially lazy, I just don a cap. Now I think huge sunglasses are a pretty good idea as well.

And guess what happened at dinner? We planned to have a nice family meal at Kartini's, Parkway because it's been a really long time since we all went out together. So okay, I was really psyched to try the tahu telur there. But when we got there..it was such a major disappointment. Why? Not only had alot of dishes finished [they only told us after we ordered], the chicken dish had eggshells in it! K, so that was major disappointment number one. Major disappointment number two was when we reported it to the waitress. She came back with the same dish with the eggshells still in it, apologized, told us to continue eating it and they would not charge us for it and then she left.

I kid you not.

So later, we told the manager what had happened. She apologized once for it, and when my sister told her we would probably never go back to the same restaurant again..she responded with a mere "Ok."

So yeah, that's about it. We were still hungry after that so we had Macs drive-through. T'was very nice! =)

Signing out!

I know a place that we can go to, a place where no one knows you
They won't know who we are.
I know a place that we can run to, and do those things we want to
They won't know who we are.

I just zipped out to Marina Square and back to pick something up. You know what? I should never go out when I'm feeling lazy. Lazy as in, too lazy to be bothered with my appearance because that's always - and I stress on always - when I bump into people I know. Bumped into Liyana, Nurain, Adlina and Aidil there. Sometimes I really wish I was more concerned with how I look. I think I take after my mom..she hardly ever wears make up and even if she does, it's very minimal. I'm usually the one running after her trying to give her a makeover and she'll be telling me not to bother and to save it for myself. Sometimes..I can be bothered but most of the time, I can't. Hmmm.

I know a place that we forgot, a place where we won't get caught in
They won't know who we are.
I know a place where we can hide out, and turn our hearts inside out
They won't know who we are.

We're supposed to go to the beach but my mom and sister aren't back yet. =( Now the beach is double the fun because I get to drive there! Whoopee! The pictures in Amri's blog, when they went to KL, look like so much fun! I wonder when we're going to Sentosa -? Shaazzaaaa Amalinaaa Shaaarriii!!! Speaking of pictures, the pictures in Shaza's blog look really fun too. Silat's trip. =) Oh! I'm loving my new phone, by the way. Yeah yeah, it's not all that great but when you've been stuck with an ordinary phone for way too long, any phone that's better seems a helluva lot better.

We can get away to a better place if you let me take you there
We can go there now cause every second counts
Girl just let me take you there
Take you there.

Because...

These chicks don't even know the name of my band.

Heyyy Lulu, guess what? I totally agree with what you said right here: But on the other, I do want that rock in my life. Its just how long I can play this fiercely independent woman character. This is funny.. how we're agreeing with each other through our blogs!

Then again, I always said he complemented me and that there wasn't any dependance on either part.

Now this is funny because I'm sorting out my thoughts through my blog.

And hurray! It's Christmas! Love Actually last night was sweet. The little boy [Sam?] was so adorable!

"What could be worse than the total agony of being in love?" - and he says it so sincerely and his dad is so supportive of him and when the girl kissed him and he couldn't stop beaming, he looked soo cute!

La di da..it's such a feel good movie. =)

Merry Christmas, y'all!